I'm now working from home with the relocation. The isolation is difficult, yet everyone I talk to say its amazing to have that opportunity at my income level.

I know I'm doing too much. I still find time to manage to exercise 6 days a week and play with my kids 2 hours every night on the weekdays.

My wife quit her job about a year ago so I'm the single income. We have a $2100 housing cost (mortgage+taxes) and $500/mo in car payments. We're debt free outside of that and have about $200K in cash and short term investments in the bank.

As I read through http://jacquesmattheij.com/Are+you+suffering+from+burn-out I feel like I'm on the spectrum of every bullet point. I also occasionally have flashes of unhealthy thoughts. The only emotions I feel are when I'm playing with my kids. Everything else is just a fog. I used to be full of life and creativity.

I haven't gone to the doctor because I'm fearful of being diagnosed with depression. I don't want to have to check that box on all medical questions for the rest of my life. I don't want it to affect my life insurance. I don't want to admit it to my wife and have her share it with her friends. Is depression and burnout considered weak? My mind says that it shouldn't be but my emotions say that it is.

I don't know how to message it to my employer that I need time off. A coworker had a breakdown and the rest of our leaders held it against him. It's starting to affect my work and my relationships with people at work.

I just want to sleep. I want to stop worrying about this and get back to living. Any advice? I'm posting it because I've read other helpful posts on the subject.