So while overanalyzing a problem is good for engineering, it's often bad for short term contracting and personal relationships. I've become disinterested in work and seem to read the news or do anything else besides getting the job done. Sometimes I wish someone else could take the reins and just give me a stream of tiny tasks and simple yes/no or A/B choices so all I have to do is make a decision and not have to worry about maintaining the whole context of the problem in my mind. But I don't want to work for someone else, because it's resulted in negative reinforcement and burnout. I also don't see a way to be compensated fairly for taking on the burden of being solely in charge of a project, with its loose ends and followups.

So my question is, how do you "snap out of it" and get real work done consistently day by day? I've found trance music to be helpful, and working at certain hours. But I'm looking for deeper inspiration, more metaphysical, like if I do A B C, then X life goal will result and my life will move forward. I'm not feeling that now. As far as I can tell, my future entails a never-ending stream of minutia that causes a spiritual crippling of my resolve and psyche. I worry that since I work and correspond with regular folks, that their agenda will always be at odds with mine and govern my life.

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