My life is just a big f*cking maze (too many trial and errors, esp. unnecessary ones: "doing the same thing over and over, and expecting different results"-kind of mistakes).

Now in my early 30s going to school with Gen-Z (feeling as the only Yoomer stuck in there), still having financial troubles (hard for me to make ends meet), wondering if this grind will ever come to a halt? Especially when 3 decades have passed, and you never really worked in a "real job" being "socially awkward" and lonely for most of your life.

How can I make up for my lost years? I can't this is the realization. Time can't be brought back. So this is out of the equation. All I can do now, is look into typical recommendations/life advice/studies/findings and optimize as much as I am comfortable with:

- water fasting (mostly following Valter Longo) - cold showers (b/c it helps against depression and ease my Reynolds syndrome) - socializing (not easy for me, but I must try it at least b/c: https://news.harvard.edu/gazette/story/2017/04/over-nearly-80-years-harvard-study-has-been-showing-how-to-live-a-healthy-and-happy-life/) - omega-3 and other supplements (good for easing depression caused by trauma/loneliness)

I am no expert, I don't understand these studies fully, but they at least give me some sense of direction to "steer" my remaining life out of this misery. (At least I hope so.)

1 year until I prospectively graduate. Let's see how this life of mine unfolds.