tl;dr. I am suffering from what appears to be extreme burnout from programming/working at a startup. Half a year of “time off” has done little to repair me. I seek advice on how to get my life back on track and move forward.

I cut out of a ton of details in order to make this post as short as possible. Even so, it is a bit lengthy. It is about 4,000 characters, which is over the HN limit of 2,000. I have the full text pasted here. https://pastebin.com/0kx5jfrK It is a short read. Definitely under five minutes. Thank you for reading it.

Let me preemptively respond to some possible suggestions: 1) Exercise. I’ve been exercising daily and eating healthy for years now (well before X). That’s not my issue. 2) Travel. I have been traveling more with my time off, both international and domestic. While I enjoy it, it doesn’t seem to have changed much my outlook on my day-to-day life. 3) Therapy. I went to a therapist for a year or two while I was working at X. I don’t know how much it helped, if at all. It has been about a year since I’ve been back.

Thank you, HN.