"For most of history success meant control of scarce resources. One got that by fighting, whether literally in the case of pastoral nomads driving hunter-gatherers into marginal lands, or metaphorically in the case of Gilded Age financiers contending with one another to assemble railroad monopolies. For most of history, success meant success at zero-sum games. And in most of them meanness was not a handicap but probably an advantage.

That is changing. Increasingly the games that matter are not zero-sum. Increasingly you win not by fighting to get control of a scarce resource, but by having new ideas and building new things. [3]"

In fact , I dropped out of college 3 times in USA towards the end of my course because somehow the idea stuck in me head that capitalism was a zero-sum game.(possibly a by-product of playing too much Go,which is a zero-sum game)

Because of that, I did not want to face the real world. I believed that the real world was filled with evil people and I did not want to be part of an ecosystem where "the strong survived, and the weak perished" so to speak.

This led to me being unable to concentrate and failing my classes. I ended up getting my visa to America denied the last time I applied back about 3 years ago by the consular officer who said to only reapply back when my personal circumstances have improved.

I believe a large part of this is due to being promised a large inheritance from my family. Never had to work hard to make money, earn a living and develop any skill-sets in my life at all ... so I created a false image of the world in my mind from watching too many Hollywood movies about Wall Street and i chose to live in delusion.